Just another one

I wonder
If you think I really love you
And is it cruel of me
To think that I do,
But suspect that I don’t,
And still go on living smoothly,
With kisses interspersed in between.

When the song is over

When the song is over,
And the melody is long gone,
Then you’d wonder when alone,
White lips of a long-dead lover

But something would gnaw at your mind,
Something sinister in your memories,
A trace of poison, a mockery
Of love, thought to be deaf and blind

And then you’d know
It was your song that kept you alive,
And not the love

शून्य की ओर

ज़िन्दगी का हर गुज़रता हुआ लम्हा,
दूर ले जा रहा है मुझे
तुमसे, तुम्हारी यादों से
जैसे किसी नाव पे सवार, क्षितिज की ओर बढ़ता हुआ

तुमसे ही नहीं, सबसे दूर जा रहा हूँ
सबके चेहरे अँधेरे में विलीन होते हुए
कुछ हँसते-रोते, कुछ एकटक देखते हुए
एक सन्नाटे, शून्य की ओर जा रहा हूँ

Flashes and blotches of dark, 
In a murky sea of grey,
Vying for the lights in my eye…

Hopping and swimming,
Grey sea of imperfections,
But too stubborn to drown and die…

Asking the winds

I’m lost, among these sounds,
Desires yet unfulfilled
Sights yet unseen…
The demons and the gods,
vie for my mind…

Drunk from the fountain of youth,
I’ve wandered often from my path.
Lost sight of my goal, faltered,
With the pains of growing up…

There is something in the air,
Which I don’t yet understand
Something which was before,
And will remain after me,
It helps me go, it leads me astray…

I wonder, is this my path?
I look around, in yellow fields.
Where am I going, is there a goal?
I wish the winds had an answer…